o, well, hi.
the past couple weeks have really served to internalize some very thin values i've been carrying around very poorly.
reading some bhagavad-gita...what's really stuck so far is the importance of discipline. whether you buy into any sort of model of the ultimate, i think its still useful to think of ourselves as containing a higher consciousness that needs a little help to transcend these stories we put ourselves in...to cultivate awareness outside your story..
with better understanding comes compassion...a smaller ego, an easier approach to life's conundrums
i do not like to hurt people, arjuna did not want to go into battle
you only want to murder your family if you're a disconnected psychonutball...however, theoretically, there are higher things that your own desire to keep your hands clean
inaction is action and we all must keep acting, there's no getting out of it...but who's in charge here? whose intention are we serving?
it is a possibility to explore who gets to drive this bus. there are experiments to be done.
kindness can seem pretty awful sometimes.
the responsibility is all our own to discipline ourselves to cultivate this higher self that is sitting idly waiting for its opportunity to drive. its got its gloves on now.we are supposed to be frightened.
that said, i've got a lot of work to do
i suppose i will always be doing it...i shall always be striving and failing to serve the goodness inside of me, which will not show itself unless i give it it's dues.
this can make for some very awkward moments. good thing there's humor for that.
well, and tears.
good thing loss makes room for growth. creative expansion.. go with it.
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