is my daily routine fostering an attachment to certain comforts...is my sense of well being dependent on factors outside my own personal growth?
yeah.
okay, so now is when i say i deactivated my facebook and now am engaging in an effort to retire my smoking habit.
but that these efforts have served mostly to emphasize the other things i turn to for distraction and nourishment that dont actually serve me.
like
beer
like
unhealthy foods
like
inauthentic social engagement
i could use a massage, a yoga class, a detox, i know
instead, every day i make decisions to do otherwise
and then i sorta beat myself up about it
i think a lot of humans do this sort of thing when theyre forced with their own honest assessment of what needs to be done
some people just do it
right then
not i, said kris
not all the time anyway
theres a lot of positive shit going down anyway
my friends are good, i have a boyfriend right now who is pretty sweet, seems to think i'm one of his favorite people right now, i have a bicycle, my cat is flea infested and dirty, but otherwise seems all right
(RIP tomas.)